Tuesday, July 3, 2012
A funny analogy, but think about it for a second. Is this a true picture of your life? There are times we feel God has given us a brain so we can use it; and when we’ve tried all and it does not seem to work, we turn and say ‘God take the wheels now!’ And when it does not seem like He is driving (because you are obviously focusing on the circumstances and they seem pretty the same or even worse), you start whining; ‘God are you driving? I said take the wheels; I want you to go this way, or turn around. I don’t like what I see here; I’ll prefer to take this route, it looks like a smooth ride that way…’ And we just go on and on.
I've had so much on my mind lately, having sleepless nights and lacking appetite. But I did come to this point where I realised that I was getting my hairs grey and increasing the wrinkles on my forehead. So I said, ‘Jesus take the wheels’. After being at peace for a few days and things did not seem to change, I knelt down and said, ‘Hello God, it’s me your darling daughter again, at your feet. Just checking, are you still driving? Because this is what I want, and I still can’t see it!’ I did that many times afterwards, till I realised I was whining. This verse came to my heart;
‘do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God’ Philippians 4:6 (ESV)’
Then I started thanking God. “God, here I am again saying thank you. I’m looking at my circumstances, they seem the same, but I know You are at work. You are God irrespective of my circumstances or the challenges I face. You are God irrespective of the way I feel now. You are God alone’. And after a while of still feeling disturbed, I said ‘God, I choose not to look at my circumstances, I praise you because you are working it out for MY GOOD’.
My point here? When we stop looking at the raging winds around us, we can actually settle down and believe God is actually in control even if everything around us seems tumultuous. It’s at that point we can let the peace of God act as an umpire over our souls, hence kicking out every atom of anxiety that wants to come past it. It’s at that point we can confidently thank God without being tempted to whine. Even if it seems like your boat is ‘half capsized’, you can confidently say God is with me, I shall not be moved. Selah
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Thursday, May 10, 2012
Friday, February 24, 2012
My meditations this morning and I thought I should share it; have fun reading and I hope you get something out of it like I did!
You know how you always like to know what’s ahead of you….
-Easy now, don’t jump the gun… For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Ditch the apprehension, get excited!
You know when you have that feeling like you are struggling with something and it seems like no one is interested in what you are going through?
-I want you to stop struggling, let go and let me catch you, let me hold you, and take you through this challenge step by step so you are tried and tested; through and through.
You know how you feel when you have poured out your heart to someone and the person takes that information to someone else and it becomes their ‘gist’?
-I want you to be able to pour out your heart to me, I listen, I’m your friend, I’m interested and I’ll only tell people who I know can help you (*winks*)
When you feel hurt by someone you love and the feelings of resentment keep swelling within you and you really don’t know what to do;
-Turn to me, I am your healer. Talk to me, I know your thoughts and I definitely have a way forward for you.
When you feel like all your friends have left you, they don’t call you, they don’t seem to care and making new ones is proving difficult;
-I am here for you. I am the friend who is forever near. You need no airtime to talk to me!
When you have some weird thoughts going through your mind that you can’t even share with anyone tell me about them, I know your thoughts.
When you are confused on a certain issue and are expecting me to thunder from heaven, in that loud voice, saying, ‘my daughter, this is what you should do…’;
- It’s not like I can’t do that, however, I need you to pause and not focus on the challenge. Listen for me to direct you. Be anxious for nothing, the anxiety hinders you from hearing my voice. Take a bold step forward in faith and clarity would come. Remember when the Israelites were standing the red sea before them, the Egyptians behind them, Moses said, ‘stand still and you’ll see the salvation of the Lord’; I said, GO FORWARD.
-I know! I heard you the first time. There are several reasons you have not ‘seen’ a response; retune your focus - not on the physical but the spiritual... You probably need to hear this again... I KNOW THE PLANS I HAVE FOR YOU... I’m working it all out. Oh that the eyes of your understanding would be enlightened- then, you’ll know that I don’t stall!
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Monday, February 13, 2012
So, what’s it about Valentine’s day that people get to scream about? I’ll try to walk through the different opinions of people I've come across here.
It’s a day a guy gets a girl some gifts and the girl shows it off, ‘He loves me’ J.
A day some guys show a girl they are actually interested in her by getting her a gift and not addressing it (has this happened to you before?).
A day some guys see as getting into a girls pants because they got her suya, or blackberry…
A day some guys think they should pray and fast about because they don’t believe in Valentine;
A day some girls get to sulk and wonder if they are beautiful, I mean, why am I not been showered with presents? And my room mate got from 5 different guys! Can’t the love go around?
A day some of those ‘spiritual brothers’ we know claim they don’t believe in, whilst their girlfriends (did I say girlfriends??? Scratch that! Fiance or Fedora) stop themselves from revolting due to the fear of being tagged as ungodly.
A day to show love… A love, which is not really understood by lots of people.
Okay, so how do I view Valentine’s Day? I’ll be truthful. I passed through different phases in life. The phase of believing that Vals day should be celebrated, just because I wanted to prove to others that my boyfriend loved me.
The truth is if I need to prove it to others, probably I’m in doubt of that love myself.
I recall a definition of love which I’d like to call upon now, love is a decision. Have you ever had a hot argument with your husband, wife, girlfriend, boyfriend, fiancé, fiancée etc. that it just seems like thoughts of resentment are just going through your head??? At that point, you’ll know that loving could be a challenge. It’s at that point I have to let go of the resentment, apologise even when I don’t feel I’m wrong but because I know I’ve hurt his feelings during my vendetta to win the argument. That’s my decision, to love him no matter what…
Did I just digress? Okay, Valentine love is the ‘giving love’. Love gives. Gives, irrespective of how it feels (that’s if love has feelings). It gives even when it does not have enough. It gives when giving seems impossible. Giving is not limited to material gifts. It includes giving my time, my listening ears when you are down, sacrificial giving when it’s not convenient… I really can’t exhaust this list.
Now should this love be shared on just one day? As a lady, I’ve been wowed several times by my husband just coming home with a lovely dress from a store (it was neither Christmas nor my birthday). I’ve also had him share my pain, even when I’m wrong and I’m expecting him to say, ‘serves you right’ or ‘I told you so’; he just stayed there and consoled me whilst I licked my wounds. Do I only want to get this attention on Vals day? Emphatically No!
And lest I forget, giving is a two way street. I know people who like receiving, but find it difficult to give. I’ve heard guys ask, ‘why is it only girls that should receive gifts on vals?’ Simple, some girls finds it difficult to give. Girls/ladies are sometimes plagued by, ‘I don’t want it to seem like I’m the person giving my all in this relationship and he is just sitting and sipping cocktail, expecting me to bow at his every command’.
The truth is, ladies/girls who feel this way need to deal with the feelings themselves. These feelings can’t be healed by a partner’s attention or activities. It can only be dealt with by ignoring what people think. People are entitled to their opinions, and trust me, they’ll have one irrespective of if you act or don’t act!
In summary, in the bid to celebrate love on a particular day, I’d say, love should be celebrated every day. Love should be given and showed everyday by both parties. If your days are filled with constant giving and sharing, there’ll be no hassles over the celebration of valentine; because, it would be like every normal day.
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Friday, July 15, 2011
i lost a very close friend about a couple of months back and a lot of things just dawned on me. why is it that it is when we loose people, that is when we appreciate them? that is when we say wonderful things about them, say how they influenced us positively, how they gave us a push in the right direction etc. if they could read all those words from beyond the grave... maybe they can... i can't tell, i've never been there.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Woke up this morning so happy and thankful for lots of things. Firstly, that the 'night' time was over.